Sunday, July 11, 2010

TWO WEEKS AGO TODAY







Two weeks ago today, we were enjoying the sandy beach of "The Shores" in La Jolla with the entire Nelson family. These photos make me smile and I can almost feel like I'm back on the beach with all the boys. Photos tell so much more than just the initial snapshot...I can look at the photo of Todd and see Nick and Chris in the background. Todd has a very relaxed, happy smile and looks awesome :) The photo of Zach shows him sitting in the sand and his comfort in staying close to the shore, but still enjoying the water. Nick and Chris heading out to the ocean with my feet in the photo just makes me smile because I know that I was sitting there and smiling as I watched them head out. And finally, the photo of myself and Nick is just relaxed and happy. I am thankful for this time we all had together as a family, and specifically, as it relates to these photos, the time and memories we created together as the 5 of us.



Friday, January 15, 2010

THANKFUL


From the age of 2ish, Nick was diagnosed with "Reactive Airway Disease" which they then termed as "Asthma" after he turned 3. I remember him being really little and just starting to breath really hard and fast. We would take him in to after care and they would give him a "treatment" and he would be okay. As he got a little older (3), it became more of a concern and happening enough that he had to have a nebulizer and do "treatments" several times a day. Thinking back, we just did what we needed to do for him and didn't get "down" about it, because it needed to be handled and we just wanted him to be okay. Now, it just makes me sad and remember how tough those times really were. One time, he was struggling but wasn't too bad and we were driving to the doctor for an appt and by the time we got there, he was in a very bad situation which even scared the nurse. If I recall, they gave him a shot in his leg and that helped immediately. I am pretty sure even Dr. Kyriazi was scared because he still mentions it sometimes.


After a while, Dr. Kyriazi felt like it would be best for him to go to a specialist for this so we started with Dr. Koepke and Colorado Allergy and ASthma. He also started with allergy shots that would continue for over 4 years on a weekly basis ...sometimes up to 2-3 times a week. He was also put on a daily medication which was fairly new at the time, Advair, and had a nebulizer, albuterol and steroids when necessary...lots for a little kid to handle, but he never complained and just did what he needed to do.


In 2004, he truly had his worst year and was in and out of the specialists office more than I could probably count along with a ride in the ambulance. There were some scary times and many doses of medication and steroids. It makes me feel so bad when I think back to this, but once again, Nick showed his strength and handled all this better than most people handle health issues as adults.


Fast forward to yesterday (as I could go on about this for many more paragraphs)...he was moved down on his daily Advair from 250 to 100 about 8 months ago. He was afraid to lower his dose because he knew that this medication really has made a difference. As he stayed on the lower dose, he seemed to not need his albuterol "puffer" too often and was more preventative up front than needing it as an "emergency." Once again, not thinking too much about it and just thankful he was doing okay. When his dose was lowered 8 months ago, his "levels" were at 87% which were considered very good. YESTERDAY, we went in for a med check and to get prescriptions renewed and his levels...with less medication were at 97%!!! Nick told Martha (the PA that has been with him through all the years) that he hasn't felt "tight" in a long time and was doing well. What impresses me about Nick is that he has always been very in tune to his asthma and what it felt like to him...very important, but also amazing that even a little boy at such a young age, could gage when he was hitting a point of concern. He remains on his Advair 100 and will do so but the progress he has made is miraculous, and now I can look back on these past 14 years and really reflect.


I would never wish this upon him for anything...and it is so hard to even think back to when he would just get all comfy, get his whitey and Arf, have a cup of milk in his straw cup, pull the fuzzies off it and and then do his nebulizer treatment. It was just part of him...and Asthma will always be part of him. He always needs to continue to trust himself and his body when he struggles and be aware of that and willing to take action...I think that he will. He has gained a inner strength because of all of this and is stronger and better because of this awful disease. He has never let asthma get him...and really never got down about it, but I have to think it was frustrating so many times and scary even more times. So...for now, we are thankful that he is doing well and I will pray and pray and pray that it remains so forever! I love you so much Nick and am so proud of you. Thanks for being such a model for all of us.

Monday, January 4, 2010

What I appreciate today....1/4/2010

Love, love, love this photo of the three boys. You guys make me so proud and my heart so happy.
This was one crazy ram...he kept making these wierd noises with his mouth as he was licking or eating something and then would look at us and burp. When we would make a noise, he would burp back at us. I'll bet he is a CSU ram fan...I'm just sure of it.

I am quite sure we have several pictures of Zach through the years in this exact spot. What's even cooler is that he remembers that, too, and reminds me to take the photo. :)


Goofing around before hitting the zoo. What was Chris putting in your hood, Zach? We had a great trip to the zoo. We have had a tradition of going to the zoo after Christmas almost every year since Chris was 1. What was so cool is that the boys each individually thanked me at different points of our visit for taking them there. I think I was the one who should thank them for wanting to go.


Today, the boys went back to school. After a long break, I always dread the day before when I know that they have to go back and our relaxed, fun, hangout schedule is going to change. I looked at the alarm set for 5:30 am and just knew that another time together had passed. The good thing is that I know there will be more of these special times, and because of that, I can look back and APPRECIATE the time we had and it becomes a treasure. The ease of just being together, playing games, talking, laughing, and even arguing is just so awesome. Yesterday, Chris was talking about being at home and going back to school and he said "home is just fun." What a great comment coming from a teenager. I hope the boys always feel that way and love being at home. I'll admit, not everything is always in perfect order, but what is in order is that we all like eachother as well as love eachother and that just is incredible and that is reason to APPRECIATE these times all the more.

























Friday, January 1, 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!





HAPPY NEW YEAR! I cannot believe, first of all, that I haven't posted for so long. I have so many things that are always on my mind and that I want to blog about, and for some reason, time always seems to slip away and this never gets crossed off my "to do" list, BUT since it is a new year, it is a good time to get in a better habit of blogging. I use this as my online journal so it is important for me that I do this. These are some pictures taken on Thanksgiving day...leading to my word of the year...the word I will use to shape the ideas in my mind, the times I spend with people, the things I do...and that word is...APPRECIATE! Throughout this year, I will be using this word and blogging about it...hoping to mix photos with digging deeper in to what I appreciate. I do think I work hard to make sure to appreciate the moments, but by challenging myself to look at things in a deeper level, I think it will be a really positive challenge for this year. With these pictures, what I know is that I appreciate my family...the five of us...the relationship we have all together and the relationship we have developed amongst ourselves with eachother. I feel quite sure that we are the kind of people in which "what you see is what you get" and these photos show a family that truly does love and respect eachother and because of that, I really APPRECIATE that.